Here I Go Again....

Back to School Time

This time of year is always so hard for me. I have never had to grow up. I have never had a job that requires you to work year round therefore, every year I have to go through this slight mourning process....It's like leaving my baby after being home on maternity leave, except I do it every year. This year is even more anxiety provoking. I have 2 of the 3 kids starting school. Raegan is starting Kindergarten. Her teacher's name is Ms. Kennedy and she is very excited. I hear that the teacher is very LOUD, but nice. Due to some speech and language concerns, Colton will be getting on the school bus 3 days a week and going to the Early Childhood program in DeForest. I will be sending my little 3 yr old on a bus (the thought alone is enough to draw tears). The other two days a week he will be going to Country Creek, where Raegan went this past year. I hope he will love it as much as she did

I can't believe Raegan is starting her schooling experience. I want her to love it. So far she is sooo excited. I am more apprehensive than she is. We went shopping last night for her school supplies...Pretty uneventful. The only thing I found very odd is that they need 5 boxes of crayons. Target was out. I have been teaching for 10 year now and have never known a kids to blow through one whole box much less 5....If they really use that many crayons then they are spending too much time coloring in my opinion....

This year is different for me. I am going back to work part time and starting a new job position. I will be teaching Reading Recovery. This is a great opportunity. It is a program that selects children that are having the hardest time learning to read and write and designs lessons strictly focused on what the individual child needs. I teach 4 children per semester and it is one on one. I also have to be in training while doing this position. I will be taking a class for 3 hours on Tues nights and will be observed often. This is the part that is scaring me the most. Anyone who knows me well knows I do not like to be in the spotlight. I will be teaching behind a one way mirror while others watch....Enough to make me want to puke...Then the teacher leader will come a few times to observe me and I will have to video tape myself a few times. I am wondering if I made the right decision...

The most important thing is that I will be home by 11:30 every day. I will be here to get Raegan off of the bus. I will be here to make Macy and Colton lunch and put her down for her nap. I will be here for my kids.

This is only happening because I have the best mother, mother in law, aunt and friend, Jen, in the world. They are all helping me out to make this happen for me. If I had to pay to put the kids in daycare then I would not be able to do this. So thanks you all. I can't tell you how much I appreciate this.

So as I wrap up my last official day of vacation, I need to focus on the reasons why I took this new position and how it is benefiting me professionally and my family personally...Even if I throw up and freak out 4 times a year when I go BEHIND THE GLASS...